pain

I really thought that the surgery was going to be the hard part of cancer treatment.

I was wrong.

Generally, I'm a pretty non-whiny person, I think. But radiation has brought out the whiner in me. It hurts, bad. At least with the surgery, when I was in pain, I could take some drugs and the pain would go away. Now, with radiation it just eases the pain. It's always there though. Lurking, waiting for the medication to wear off and come back full force.

It sucks.

And I can't really speak. It hurts too much. I have what feel like blisters all over the inside of my lower lip and on the tip of my tongue. It hurts to swallow too. Just moving my tongue the little bit necessary to swallow causes pain. I'm trapped inside my head.

I really don't know how people go through this without a support system. Even with my friends and family backing me its tough. But I know I can't give up and beg my doctor to stop because it could come back then and that would hurt them.

"Pain is temporary. It may last a minute, or an hour, or a day, or a year, but eventually the pain will subside and something else will take its place. If I quit, however, it lasts forever". - Lance Armstrong